Too excited.

I am too excited to go to Disney World with Eric. Sigh. 4 days :D

Please tell me-e-e what there is to complain about??

Postcards

I really love postcards. I collect them in fact, if any of you didn't know. I'm gonna post some of them on here for fun, and because I'm a nerd.

So... if yall go anywhere cool, or uh, anywhere not here, and ya see a postcard, you know, you could always like, send it to me... or like you know. not. BUT I could totally reimburse you for your expensive purchase of course because postcards are soooooo expensive you know :D

Well.

My ears are still ringing from the house show tonight, but it was still fun!
I'm so glad all my friends came, that was awesome of them to do that!! Eric's band sounded good, I mean I've heard them like 5 times but still it was their first show, even if it was just a house show. Twas fun.
AND, as a bonus, we got to see a cat fight in the Burger King parking lot next to Cookout.

Good end to a good day, yeah?

Today was fun because:

I went to the pool with Jack and my mom.

I had a very chill afternoon.

I hung out with Rachel, Elizabeth, Kathryn, and Eric tonight. Shenanigans ensued.

Go summer!

That I would Be Good

That I would be good even if I did nothing
That I would be good even if I got the thumbs down
That I would be good if I got and stayed sick
That I would be good even if I gained ten pounds

That I would be fine even if I went bankrupt
That I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth
That I would be great if I was no longer queen
That I would be grand if I was not all knowing

That I would be loved even when I numb myself
That I would be good even when I am overwhelmed
That I would be loved even when I was fuming
That I would be good even if I was clingy

That I would be good even if I lost sanity
That I would be good
whether with or without you


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qf3sZpnT1nA

I had a dream...

that it was prom night. It was so exciting. My hair was so straight, my dress looked so pretty, and I was soooo excited. Then I woke up. Wompppppp.

Apartment searching....

I don't know how I feel about looking for a big-girl apartment.... it's kind of cool, but kind of scary at the same time! I guess it's because I'm not looking for one with my friends, I'm just looking for one like a crazy woman. I need a place to live! :D But I've got a few people talking to me right now so holler. Ok. This was randoz.

Love is awesome and awful at the same time. Yeah that's something we've heard in songs, poems, stories our whole lives, and until now I've never really thought of love as a bad, gut wrenching, painful kind of thing.

But not being able to say "I will be with you forever" is painful when it crosses your mind every so often.

You take people's access and availability for granted but when you really think about what it would be like to not have them there, you wonder if it was even worth it at all. To tell them so much about you, every birthmark, every scar, every heartbreak, every family story. Your dreams and your stupid fantasies. Those embarrassing moments and childhood memories that are you. Your insecurities and your favorite shirt. The nail polish you like and your favorite book. When that person knows your panicked voice and doesn't mind being yelled at when you're PMSing, then you get scared. Because no one else has gotten that close. Because it's hard to tell anyone everything about you. Because only a special person can handle every aspect and flaw. And you wonder what if..... what if they stopped loving me. If they died.

They would have all of you and you'd be alone. And you realize you would have no one to call when you're scared of the dark. So why did you go and give so much in the first place, when nothing in this world is guaranteed, nothing lasts forever. (except God if you're being literal)

I would crumble, and I'd fall apart. I would probably eat a lot for a while, because at that point, food would be the only thing that completely understood me. It would be awful, yes. But when I thought back to when I asked if it was worth it, I would always say Yes because for some amount of time, someone stayed on the phone when I cried, and someone loved me.

tehehe

This is our friendship picture. Nuff said.