Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Tuesdays are funky. Not a cool funky though.

Oh Tuesdays. How I used to hate you when I did gymnastics. They were the worst days.
But that is my life no more, and I am therefore subjected to hating Tuesdays at JMU.

Anyway. I got a paper back in GWRIT this morning. Received an A-. Not too shabby eh eh? Considering I bull crippy crapped it, I was pretty pleased.

I finished a (hopefully) decent paper for GHIST about the book We Wish To Inform You We Will Be Killed With Our Families. I would recommend it, it's about the Rwandan genocide. Tis depressing buuut good.

Then I basically did a little homework and chilled in my dorm for the rest of the night. Watched Glory Daze with Meghan. That show is funny!!!!! :D And I talked to Eric which was good. I like being comfortable enough to explain things to him. Tis gooda gooda. I think I'm going to "sleep" aka facebook, itunes, youtube, blogger, twitter, email, then sleep.

Favorite Verse (that I know of)

Sooo Steph always has a favorite verse of somebody's on her blog so I feel like putting mine up.

"If the world hates you, be aware that it hated me before it hated you.
If you belonged to the world, the world would love you as its own.
Because you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world-
therefore the world hates you.
Remember the word that I said to you, 'Servants are not greater than their master'.
If they persecuted me, they will persecute you; if they kept my word, they will keep yours also.
But they will do all these things to you on account of my name, because they do not know him who sent me."
John 15: 18-21.

This is actually kind of negative. But because it's negative it's kind of positive? I mean. Life is not easy and not everyone is going to love you. That's what Jesus is saying here. We can try to make everyone like us but think about it.... people hated Jesus so of course there are going to be some people that hate us. If there were people on this earth that hated a perfect being then duh.... people are going to hate completely imperfect humans. It's unavoidable.

On a more positive note, he's saying that you don't belong to the world and that's why the world (certain people) can hate you. You belong to me and that's why I love you. I chose you. Out of everyone on this planet he chose you. That's a crazy thought.

And one more thing, it's just comforting knowing that yeah people may not like me, but people didn't like Jesus either. I don't know if that's the right way to go about thinking, but. Meh. It's like.... he understands hatred. He was there. He wouldn't put us through it if he didn't think we could handle being not liked or even hated. Ok. There.

Basically what he's saying here is "HATERS GON HATE!!!!!" :D :D :D

Monday, November 29, 2010

Do you ever feel inadequate.

I Don't Know

Library time once again.... I like it here because it basically forces you to think. It forces you to be with yourself. We spend so much time texting, skyping, facebooking, working, studying, that we never just get to be with ourselves. It's a weird concept, one that I find very hard to grasp. Even the thought of "myself" is hard for me to understand. People think they know who they are but I don't think they really do. I don't. I don't know who I am. I know my name. I know what I'm like. But is that me? Is that who I am? I look in the mirror and see a face, one that I'm not always happy with. The more I look the more it gets distorted and I have to look away. I don't know who I am and I don't know what I want quite yet. I know everything I have right now is what I want, but I don't know what I want from the future. I don't know what I want my life to be. I don't know a lot of things. I guess that's what growing is for.

Sunday, November 28, 2010


1. Thanksgiving break has been so much fun! I got to hang out with my best friends, my family and my boyfriend. I got to celebrate my birthday too which was really fun.

2. CHRISTMAS TIME!!!!!! So. I am in love with Christmas. I mean everyone is, but I'm just letting yall know. Here are some reasons.

- Christmas music. Everyone knows these songs, you've been listening to them since you were alive. They're just so Christmas-y! And it's a constant reminder that it's CHRISTMAS!!

- Christmas food. Chocolate. Peppermint. Cocoa. Cookies. Fudge. Gingerbread houses. Sprinkles. It's just an excuse to eat more than any other time of the year. And it's always nice to cook with your mommy or daddy. Or even your friends. Food's just a fun thing to unite people with.

- Decorations. I LOVE DECORATIONS. Especially the Christmas sort. You've got the tree. That's always fun to decorate, although I won't be here to do it. And lights in neighborhoods. And just other decorations around our house and other people's houses. YESSS.

- Presents of course. Present are always fun. I like everything else better though... well now that I'm older I do haha.

- And the most obvious reason BABY JESUS YALL!!!!! That's the reason Christmas is what it is... because Jesus was born. So. Show some respect. I love my church's Christmas Eve service because we put up a huge tree with really pretty ornaments and the pews are filled and we sing Christmas songs and I love it!!! Yayyy I LOVE CHRISTMAS I AM SO HAPPY :D :D :D :D

Friday, November 26, 2010

I'm thankful for...

My family.
My crazy little brother and my awesome big brother.
My health.
My friends.
Elizabeth, Kathryn, Stephanie, Samantha, Rachel, Hannah, Bea :D
Being able to go to an amazing school.
Having an amazing small group.
Being able to let go of things.
....Running water.... yeah that's pretty nice.
Oh yeah toilets yeahhh.
More clothes than I need.
Being able to go to whatever church I want whenever I want however I want.
Laughing all the time. Tis lovely.

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Love it.

I absolutely love getting in my car and finding out that it doesn't work properly. It's awesome being on break for a week and not being able to drive anywhere. I mean... I wanted to sit at home for 10 days anyway, it's cool.

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Birthday festivities :D

I could not concentrate today. I had a psych quiz at 9 in the am.... hahahahahaha what a joke. We all failed.
I also had a math exam.... which I'm not going to laugh about because it's math. And knowing me I'd laugh in math's face and it would fail me for it. So. I bow down to you mathematics.

Anywho after class I had a nice lunch with Steph, got ready to leave, left, and came HOME!!
I always love the feeling I get when I roll into Richmond. It's amazingg. I love home.

After I got hizome I went over to Eric's to see part of his present he got me.... he recorded this song I really like that he does yayyyyyyyyy and then another one and then he's giving me more songs but something happened but yeah. Awesome present. Lalala.

Zennn my familia plus Jack's gf Kelly (who is family at this point)and Erique went to Magianno's. Twas gooda. Our waitress was redic. I smelled my dad's beer and she goes "WHOAH you scared me!!!!!" .... I was like really? I'm smelling his beer.... I'm not chugging shots woman......


Then we made a Waffle House run with Ricardo, Tucker, Thomas Ware, Thomas Payne, and Stewart. It was hilariousss. As always. But yeah. Very good birthday. So stoked to be here.

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Wednesday, November 17, 2010


It seriously makes me extremely happy.


My dad's parents sent me a nice birthday card (like they always do) with a little writing from themselves in it and part of it says "Wishing our dear Grandaughter a very special, happy, and fun 20th birthday." I don't blame them for getting my birthday wrong.... they have more than one grandchild... they are getting old I'll just say it... but the bad thing is I think they gave me more money than they usually do because they thought I was turning 2o? Sooo I feel bad? Haha. Bahh.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

oh library....

I like walking past this one part of campus because to me, it looks out of place. It's almost as if someone cut out a piece of scenery from another place and pasted it into JMU. It looks country-ish and cute. And it makes me feel like I'm out in the middle of nowhere for a minute. And I really like looking at it.

Monday, November 15, 2010


Kathryn- I'm sorry I don't talk to you enough. You're my best friend and that'll never change for me. I hope it won't change for you.

Mike- I regret not spending enough time with you, especially this past summer. I love you though and maybe I should start telling you more. If I think of you being hurt I honestly go cold. I'd probably die if I knew it could keep you from dying, I just can't imagine you not here.

Ariel- I miss you. You were my best friend and it was nice knowing I was the only one you ran to. We walked away from each other and we both know it's so wrong. I know we both feel it. Or at least I hope you feel it.

Twins- Why do yall ignore me? It doesn't really bother me; I've put that book on the shelf but I can't help but wonder why?

Jack- I don't like us growing up, but then again it's awesome. I don't like disappointing you and you're one of my favorite persons. I'd sadly probably write a "who's your hero?" paper on you.

Time- what does forever feel like? I want to know.

Friday, November 12, 2010


Just thought I'd let you all know, I'm having a Harry Potter Countdown Week. I'm so excited. I will officially see it in a week, which is also my birthday. Yay!! GET HYPED OR I WILL PUT A SPELL ON YOU.

"He couldn't know that at this very moment, people meeting in secret all over the country were holding up their glasses and saying in hushed voices: 'To Harry Potter -- the boy who lived!'"

7 days until AMAZINGNESS!!!

No Shave November

No Shave November is so much fun!! I don't have to schedule my shaving and it is just amazing. Especially because I left my razor at home from last weekend on accident... so.... I really need to shave my armpits. Just saying. I know yall wanted to hear that. Maybe I'll just do no shave november completely. Muahahaha. Take that Eric.

Thursday, November 11, 2010


I am so emotional right now! I keep going through such a range of emotions. I think I'm bipolarizing guys!!! Haha just kidding. It's just been a long week that needs to be over.
Here are some bad things about this week:

Spanish test that I barely got to study for and probably got a 1 on.

Stupid computer tests that all Freshman are required to take in the computer lab with not enough comps therefore the line is long and the tests are just hard in freaking general!!!!!! MAJOR UGG BOOTS!

Scheduling classes. Stress. I need a certain math class and was worried I couldn't get it and just. Blah.

Reading a book. That is good, but very long. Blah.

Good YAY!
Got an A on said Spanish test.

Finally passed one of the stupid computer tests... only 2 more by next Friday! Yay...ish.

I scheduled my classes! And got the math I need buuuut it's at 8am. I may be able to change it though.

Anddd I also got a 100 on a paper I totally crapped my way through. Go me!!

I just need to keep reminding myself that I'm not alone and God always helps me.. it's just hard to sometimes. But it does keep me calmer so I need to start doing that more. Lala.
I love libraries. I love the light. I love the quiet. I love the simplicity. They're just books. . . but they're not just books. It's crazy to think how many words there are in this library. How many facts and fantasies are on the pages. It makes me want to freeze time and just look at all the books, row by row.
A good book should leave you... slightly exhausted at the end. You live several lives while reading it. ~William Styron, interview, Writers at Work, 1958

Sunday, November 7, 2010

"My nipple is chaffed...does that ever happen to you?"

This weekend has been fun :D :D
So listen up children it's story time!!
Oh wait I already blogged about Friday. Ok well yall will know why I'm so disoriented in a minute.
Sooo Saturday: Woke up... at 10. By Nancy. That's ok though becauseeee Jack and Kelly arrived and then we went to Shortpump where my mom bought me new gray Tom's for my birthday :D I was very pleased.

Then we went home and just hung out. It was nice. I love having Jack and Kelly home. Well wait I was home too. I keep forgetting I'm in college now haha.
Eric came over a little before dinner... I don't usually let people in my house because I'm self conscious about it's crap factor but he (or so he says) doesn't care. Sooo we ate dinner and then of course... played games.... haha no it's funnnn I just get ADD sometimes.

Actually it got pretty intense I think. But after we spend a while playing games we headed over to Liz's house and hung out for a little while with Chandler, Kathryn, and Austin before going to Walmart to get Meagan a present. Which means we made a QUAFFLE HOUSE TRIP with Elizabeth, Eric, Carlton, and Ricardo. It was amazing. As always.

Then we just went back to Elizabeth's and hung out for like 2 more hours and had really deep conversations about religion.... haha it was cool. And then we moved on to more normal topics.. you know.. nipples.. that sort of thing. At about 4:30 we decided we mightttt wanna head home so I went to bed at 5 and woke up at 7:30 to go to church. Needless to say I'm slightly dysfunctional right now and greatly looking forward to a nap. Haha. But all in all good weekend :D I'm a lucky.. or I guess I should say blessed.. girl :D

Saturday, November 6, 2010

"Teach me how to Snuggie"

I feel inadequate and that's annoying.

Anywho. So this week was really stressful. I had so much work and I never got a break even after I finished a big assignment... I had to move right on to the next one. But the week finally came to a close thank God.
Which means that today I got to come home!! :D Eric picked me up at like 3 ish and when we got back to Richmond we dropped my stuff off at home and talked to my mom for a little while. Then we went to Bottom's Up. I love that place. It made me happy.
Thennn we awkwardly went to his friend's house for .7 seconds and thennnn headed over to Paranormal Activity 2. Let me just say, that movie was scary. Haha.
Thennn Eric dropped me off at Liz's and we talked/went to Waffle House/went to Walmart. It was fun. I miss being home. I miss my boyfriend. I miss my best friends. I miss my family. I miss my boyfriend. :D But there's only 2 more weeks until Thanksgiving break!! Holla!!

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Random thoughts..

Woke up at 9:33 and had to turn in a paper at... 9:30. Ran to class in my pajamas.
It feels like fall today :D
I braided my hair so it would be wavy. I like when it's wavy.
I got an A- on a history paper
I had dinner with Paige and Sarah. Twas fun.
I joined a synchronized swimming club that one of my friends from small group is forming. Holla.
I'm coming home this weekend. I'm very excited.
I think I'm ADD.
I'm thirsty.
I didn't wear any make up today and sometimes it's nice being all natural... being you in your purest form.

Monday, November 1, 2010

Monday greeting... :D :D

I know it's Monday but maybe if we all keep this in mind it'll get us through the day.......