"well... you have gained weight....."

Today was pretty fun. It was my first day of classes and I survived!! I had psych first which was pretty interesting. Then I came back to my dorm I think...I can't even remember! I ate lunch with my bro, his gf, and her friends. Then I headed over to math. Thennnnnn I locked myself out of my dorm... with 15 minutes until spanish. My roommate saved the day though and let me in haha. Then after spanish I went to U Rec with Sammy.... we did nothing. Then we ate dinner with Jack and his gf Kelly. That was funny. EXCEPT. Here's our convo:

Kim: "I'm still hungry... I want more pizza!"

Jack: "Why don't you eat a salad....?"

Kim: "No thanks MOM... Mom always gets on me about my weight!"

Jack: "Well... you have gained weight since you quit gym..."

Kim: "What the heck!!!! What!??? Where have you noticed you douche???"

Jack: Pats his thighs slash butt. Ughh. That kid.

Anyway. Then we made a trip to Walmart for some much needed school supplies and goldfish. Then we went to an ice cream social... hung out at Kendall's.. ran into J blair.. all that jazz!!!!

This song is perfect for right now.......

I don't want to move. I'm so glad I'm not home right now or I'd be really upset.. Glad I have college to distract me. Def in the back of my mind though, and not looking forward to having to deal with it.

Oh goodness

Tomorrow is my first day of classes. I have psychology at 9, college algebra at 12:20, and spanish at 1:50. It won't be too bad hopefully. Probably just going over the syllabus and stuff. I'm worried! But excited too. I like having structure... a schedule. I also might go to a cheer meeting with Leeza. Who knows.

Peanut butter. Straight from the jar = Comfort food :)

Also. This is how I'm feeling.

So last night was fun. I went over to Jack's and hung out his girlfriend Kelly and his roommate Chris. We played some.... games.... and twas fun. I didn't wake up with toooooo bad of a headache though. Chyeahhhh. Classes start on monday so that'll be interesting. I'm kind of excited slash nervous. And apparently I'm trying out for cheerleading..... Samantha's roommate wants me to try out with her so. I guess we'll see what happens!! Oh geez....

:D

Early....I hate you Moshi

So my alarm clock, Moshi, is a total bitch. She keeps waking me up in the morning and it sucks!!!

Absolutely not. If only.

Good... night :D

After our pep rally today I came back to my dorm and danced in Bea and Hannah's room. We dressed up pretty crazily.... tried to impersonate the stereotypical JMU slut. We couldn't even quite pull it off. It was fun though, took crazy pics, which will def be up at some point. Then I headed over to the Village (dorms in the middle of campus) and there was a dance party outside :D

Got a little crazy, but it was fun. I met up with my friends from high school...Samantha, Kendall, Rachel Berry, Stephanie. I saw Luke, Carissa, and Whitney. They weren't dancing :(

Samantha's roommate had a few too many shots though and she was going CUHRAZY on the dance floor. Twas a little embarrassing. But she wants me to try out for CHEERLEADING with her. AHHHH. I think I'm going to try though. Why not ya know???But it was def a good night :D

Hmmm

Soooo everyone keeps asking me what I think about college. As of right now, I'm not entirely sure. I'm exhausted from all the FROG stuff (Freshmen yeaR Orientation Guides...aka orientation) we've been doing, but it's definitely kept me busy at least? I'm a worry wart so I worry about getting lost, being a loner, waking up on time... EEEEEEEP, stuff like that. But I'm adjusting! I hope it gets more fun soon! It's fun but... I kinda wanna get into things. Like classes.... you know.. just have a routine? Soon I suppose! Goodnight crack heads!

NOODLES

So. Now. Today. This morning. I had to wake up earlyyyyy nooooo. We had a debate. About our summer reading which was kind of cool. More interesting than I thought it would be. Of course, I was in a group of 6 guys. Not complaining though. I mean.....uh... Eric... uh... :D

Anywho. Then we ate lunch, checked my mailbox, and now I'm chilling in my dorm til my advisor meeting. I'm scared of getting lost though. What else is new. Meghan's friend is here right now. He thinks I'm weird. Wahh.

Kthnxbai.

Funnel cake at 12am... yes plz.

Today was better! I made more friends from my hall which hopefully will carry on to tomorrow.... and Step finally moved in so we caught up a little. I saw Samantha and Leeza today which was fun. We ventured over to Walmart...on foot. Not a good idea. Ate some funnel cake earlier, talked to the freshman football players, got hoisted up in the air because "I deserve a standing ovation"... saw Luke in a line of people high fiving everyone.. that kinda confused me! Overall I had a better day than yesterday. Happy face :)

But I must wake up early tomorrow to talk about our summer reading...or lack thereof. Oh joy!

Dorm!!

Sooo everyone keeps asking to see my dorm so I took some pictures! Enjoy freaks!

Goldfish...courtesy of Eric Hoyt :)

Look at my view trick! Better than a trashcan..cough..samantha.

Light reading..

Organized chaos...

Shower caddy muahaha

My side of the room

My roommate Meghan and all our glory

move in..

1st day

Tired. JMU is hilly. Ouch. More later. Want friends. Semi homesick. Better soon? Probably.

:D

I miss everyone.

:(

Last Day

Sooo it's my last day at home. Weird. I'm kind of nervous for college but I guess everyone else is too. I was sitting on my porch today... considering my mom told me there was a 90% chance we would be moving in a year or so, I'm trying to enjoy as much time in my little house as possible. Or outside of it. You know what I mean.

Snookie's new word.

Snookie's new word: Fuckness. I love it.

Weird news. . .

So amidst all the packing, my mom decided to inform me today that my dad might be relocated for his work. She said that we won't find out until January... which sucks for me and I guess all of us (that know, Mike hasn't been told yet because he's the one who's going to be affected what with high school just starting). She said that we'd most likely be moving to Chicago, because the company that bought my dad's company (Hefty) has its central headquarters in Chicago. Which is really far. And would really suck. 1.) It would suck for Mike a lot because he'd be moving to a new high school with only 3 years left. And he has all his friends here. 2.) My mom's friends are here. My dad isn't too social outside of our house so I'm not that worried about him. Except. Well yes I am because he is really involved with our church. So yes. I'd feel bad for both of them. 3.) I'd feel bad for me because all my friends are here. And even though I'm going to be in college, I'd still like to come HOME in RICHMOND on my breaks and see my friends. My friends are not in STUPID CHICAGO. Plus I can't stand the thought of living in a new neighborhood. In a new house. As much as I complain about my crappy house I really do like it. It has all my memories in it... I've never lived anywhere else. I feel like it's mine. So. I'm not a fan of this possible moving to Chicago thing. No no no. Not at all. I told my mom I would just come home on breaks. THIS home. And stay with my friends. So. She'd have to deal. But I guess I won't know for a while. I just prayyyyyyy we won't have to move. Mostly for my little brother.

:(

Just because it's pretty does NOT mean I want to move there.

I like Cussing :)

"Researchers from the school of psychology at Britain's Keele University have found swearing can make you feel better as it can have a "pain-lessening effect," according to a study published in the journal NeuroReport."

There's my excuse. Please and thank you :)

Weird

So Kathryn left today. I hung out with her all day yesterday which was really nice. I helped her pack up her car, we watched the Kardashian's, we printed out a billion pictures at CVS, visited Eric, visited Matt, then later we went to El Chaps with everyone. We said goodbye to everyone and it was sad..but when Kathryn and I got home and she gave me my letter I just started crying!!!!! I didn't think I was going to but we've been next door neighbors since..ever and I'm not exaggerating. We've been best friends for as long as I've known. I've always had someone to talk to that's only 50 ft away from my bedroom. She's the only one who completely gets me and I get her. It's pretty awesome. Now that we're going to separate colleges it's gonna be really weird. I woke up this morning and knew she had already left and I felt kinda empty..not empty but like... alone haha everyone is leaving!!! It's sad. And I already miss her!!!!

We stole the bikes a lot on beach week :)

:)

We're kinda crazy when we're exposed to each other

Laughing at me when I'm in pain.... :)

She always makes me do things... but I'm usually glad I did in the end :)

Another Waffle House video...

Waffle House video!! :D

"Flagella. Flagella!"

Soooooo I am so glad that I don't know anyone when I step into Waffle House except for the people I arrive with. Because let me tell you. I am really weird. No. NO SERIOUSLY. You should have seen the faces we were making. Don't worry. I'll add a video. It's like I'm drunk. Or high. But the really scary thing is we aren't. When the workers there start asking me if I'm high I think I should start saying yes... they'd probably think I'm more normal according to my behavior. I was so happy Maegan was there on our last Waffle House outing. It made my night. She was even weird with us!! It was quite the bonding experience. She gave us some going away presents.. she gave Elizabeth a name tag, and me and Stephanie some McDonald's toys. Needless to say they will be cherished forever!! We also found out she was 19. Quite a surprise.

Leave please?

Bahhh Kathryn showed me this website called "we heart it" and it has all these cool pictures that she and now I have started using for my blog... and it just makes me want to go out and do something. I don't even know what... but I want to go where I've never been before, you know? I just want to see everything. I don't know what though. I just want to go. I wanna go somewhere pretty and just sit there. Let's gooooooooo.

Boys will be boys....

Sooo today I hung out with 5 guys.. it was really fun though! :D

I like hanging out with guys.. there's so much less drama. We don't have to figure out what we're doing.. we don't talk (too) badly about people behind their backs... it's so much easier. I'd like to say I fit in with boys. We basically just went to Ricardo's restaurant and then went to his house. Which was hot. But that's ok. And I finally got to meet the infamous (or famous?) Kosta aka Costco. I also finally got to meet Tucker. He's really funny. And I got along with him pretty well so that's cool. Of course, when I say that I really mean he made fun of me slash I made fun of him but that's ok. After Rico's we went to Bruster's.. which consisted of ice cream obviously... but also wrestling in the parking lot? I guess guys are into that? Then we went to Eric's house and just hung out... listened to music... arm wrestled...moshed..threw money...colored...made cootie catchers...and played MASH!! Oh yeah then we went outside and played trust. Which was really scary. But it was a really fun day!!!

And now. I am drinking pink lemonade in a pink mug. That happens to say Christopher Newport on it... well. This is awkward.

Get it... they're my mug shots.....

"Counseling!!!"

From eating with all my best friends, to standing outside saying our first goodbyes, to getting ice cream and talking about hicks, asylums, halloween costumes, turtles, turtles, turtles, potential partyers, strip clubs, etc, to watching a really funny jamaican movie, to getting boob hugged multiple times by Elizabeth. . . . this was a really good night :)

THANK YOU JOSH HUIZENGA

Phone number. Private caller. "Hello?" "You called me." "No I didn't." "Do you know time it is?" "Yeah. Sorry..." End of call. Private caller again. "Hello??" "Step outside your boyfriend Eric Hoyt's house." "Who is this?" "We pimped your ride!!!!" Open door. Car tire falls over. Confusion. Run down sidewalk. Tire from car = tire on porch. Look around. See suspicious car sitting in cul-de-sac. Run towards car. Car drives away. I scream profanities at Josh Huizenga. Wake up whole neighborhood (probably).

UGHHHH those kids make me so mad!! They came back though. It was actually pretty funny. I'm just mad they have the satisfaction of saying the got us. Haha. Wow. These are our friends.......

I don't know if this is going to work. But I love this songggggg. No one likes to be imperfect but newsflash, we are. Sometimes it sucks looking out at all the "perfect" people and wishing you could be like them. But everyone has imperfections. Maybe that one girl is gorgeous... but maybe she's a bitch too. That other girl is fugly but she's the nicest person you've ever met.. ya know? Not that everyone is like that.. but most people aren't as perfect as you think. We're human. We have quirks that define us. It does suck being weird, or awkward (holla), or shy, or not skinny, or too skinny, or pimply, or fashion-challenged, or mentally challenged, or ugly, or too pretty for our own good, or just... not perfect. Some of those things we can help, and others we can't. Others we're too scared to change and we need a little time or patience. We're all imperfect in our own ways but I like to think we all have other qualities that make up for it. We may have what other people lack. We all have flaws and we all dwell on them sometimes but you kinda just have to move on and try to make things better. Easier said then done but hey, my motivational speech for the day.

Women's Night > Man Week

Girls rule. Boys drool. And fart. And play COD. And do other stupid things. Women however. Women give each other facials. And buy tons of junk food. And do other hoodrat things to get back at the boys for their exclusiveness. And it's so much more epic than man week.

VAGINA DENTADA! CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP!

Soooo yesterday me and Elizabeth went to Belle Isle. It was very fun. Besides being cut by a clam and thrown against rocks and embarrassingly attempting to cross the river while onlookers judged us. Then we went to Red Robin. It was. Interesting. After that we headed over to Eric's house early and talked to his mom. I love his mom. Hehe. Thennn we watched TEETH!!!!! DUN DUN DUN! It was ridiculous. A girl with a penis chomping vagina. I mean come on, tell me that doesn't sound funny. Well it was whether you believe me or not. OH GUESS WHAT!?? My mom bought me a talking alarm clock! I am so excited. It's name is Moshi. No seriously. I have to say "hello Moshi" to activate it. It's pretty sweet.

Dreams..

I had a weird dream last night. I was at a rock climbing place with a bunch of people we usually hang out with..specifically Elizabeth, Stephanie, Kathryn, I think Lizzie may have been there? Anyway, we weren't really rock climbing though. We were throwing people onto the rockwall like we were throwing people at the beach a few days ago. It was weird. Then I walked into a room with a bunch of random guys from my school playing cards. It kind of resembled the all night graduation party. But this game was weird. And involved some math. So naturally I sucked at it. But Kathryn and Stephanie and Elizabeth were really good at it. So I looked around the table at all the boys from my school (even ones I don't really know..?) and of course I see Eric just smirking at me. Like he always does when I'm doing something stupid but is at the same time amusing. It was really clear though. It was funny. Then I woke up.

Weird dream.

And then right as I woke up my mom came in accusing me of being up at 5:20.... which I know for a fact I was not. She even made me check my phone history... and I said again that NOOOO I was not up at 5 my phone can even prove it. Soo she said I must have been sleep talking. Weird. Because she said it was really loud. And I would pause like I was letting the other person reply. And then I would start talking again loudly and clearly. I wish I knew what I was saying! And who I was saying it to!

Isn't dreaming lovely?

Love.This.

Sometimes I feel like I'm stuck in the same place and there's nothing I can ever do to get out of it. Yeah I'm leaving for college soon but I'll still have the same expectations. I hate the way I feel sometimes and I hate how the majority of my stupid blogs are about how pissed off I am. I hate how I can't ask "why" because I'll get in trouble. I hate how every little thing makes you mad when there are so many little things that should make you happy. Everything has to be right. Everthing's either black or white.. there's no in between. I keep saying the same thing over and over and over again because nothing changes and that's just how I feel. You do something to hurt my feelings but the next second you're nice and you buy me something I need and I can't be mad at you. You demand my love but I don't really feel it. You force me to say it but it's just out of habit. You don't realize the things you say are hurtful... or the tone you say it in. Even if it's not to me. Even when it's to someone you and I care about it hurts me when you hurt them. It makes me mad because you take people for granted without realizing it. "Wait til you've been married for 26 years then you'll understand, Kim." No I don't think I'll ever understand you. I don't want to. And what scares me the most is that I see you in myself. It scares me because I don't want to be like you at all. You're inconsiderate, unreasonable, judgemental, irrational, impatient and I can't stand it. But I'm like that too... at least a little. You point that out to me and it messes me up because you're what I'm running from. If I'm like that then what am I running from now? Myself? How do you do that? I'm happy when I'm not here. I go to people's houses and I wish I could be part of their family for a while. And I don't wish you were dead and I don't hate you and I do love you. But you make it hard sometimes. You make me want to be gone all day. And I am gone all day. You feel hurt because I don't want to spend time with you but it's not possible. It's against human nature to gravitate towards something that hurts them. It's my defense mechanism to get away..my bad. You confuse me; I don't know how to feel. Most of all you hurt me and I can't do anything about it.

Old pictures :D

Soo I decided to look through a bunch of old-ish pictures and I picked a few out that I really like. I was bored today. And pictures are my go-to item for boredom.

I love this one because Laura was so much better than me and even though I got first on this particular event it still looks like I'm looking up to her... figuratively obviously.

Gimpy Kim :( haha my mom takes pictures of everything. Even when we leave for a retreat for the weekend.

I haven't been on a vacation with Jack in a longgggg time.

Pep talk for the graduate?

I love this one :D He looks so contemplative.

I'm beginning to notice a pattern..baha he's adorbs :D

I forgot about this picture and then I came across it and I really like it... I think I took it myself a few years ago so go ahead and make fun of me.. I usually make fun of "myspace pics" too. But I like it. I have a weird expression. So. Deal with it. It's probs... my fave picture of myself :D

Bahhh flowers at Maymont. They look like happy little yellow people :D